12/16/22

11:40(?) am - it's been a good day. it's currently 11:40ish am and i haven't gone to sleep, but i got some household things done and for that i'm pretty proud. i've had a really fun time learning html lately and i'm very glad i started.

i almost wish i had more to say for today, but i am so damn tired. i'm gonna go to sleep, i think.

i wish more camel gifs existed!!! i'd make em if i knew how.

2:02 pm - i know i should be asleep right now. i'm painfully tired. my whole body is screaming at me over it, and i've been trying to... but i wanted to come back and talk a little bit about how proud i am of this site. it's nothing huge. nothing grand. nothing fancy. but it's mine, and it was coded from scratch. from nothing.

there's just something so indescribably personal about creating a website by hand. every border, link, even silly gif placement.... all thought about, modified, and tweaked until that desired idea is reached. i know i sound really corny for this, but there's just something beautiful about it. carrd could never. wix could never. whatever other site builder that's out there could never. (well, i mean, they can... but that person will likely never experience the satisfaction of seeing something they hand wrote come to life slowly.) idk. i'm just thinking really hard about this, foolishly.

is it important in the grand scheme of things? of course not. a rinky dinky little website hidden in some crevice of the web isn't life changing, but it has potential to be world changing, at least for the individual. this is something i've wanted to learn to do for a very, very long time, and i finally took the dive and did it. which i am so very pleased about!

ah, i'm clearly tiredly rambling at this point, ahaha. but still, just one more time, i want to say it feels amazing that i made this. coding has never been my forte and also never clicked with me, and that probably plays a big role in my current mood. but i'm just. so proud. so foolishly proud.