01/05/23

fairly uneventful. doesn't look like my controller will be here after all, and the plans i often have with a friend of mine don't seem like they'll work out tonight, either. i just hope things get better for him.

i also did not end up starting any castlevania games like i wanted to. i actually haven't played anything at all and am considering letting my genshin account rot til hu tao's rerun. doing dailies every day didn't bother me for a really long time, but i've finally hit that wall where it feels like an annoying chore, and that makes its existence as a daily login tactic that much more apparent (even though i already know the various ways in which genshin entices people to do so).

in happy news, i was 'hired' to fix a thing up for my partner. it's a bit of a shame they ended up disliking it in the end, but i'm still glad i was hired anyway! i like to feel helpful.

eating my second bowl of rice and fish today and debating if the fish is like... bad or something. it tastes fine but it also tastes a little too oceany or something? or maybe i'm just overthinking it because i googled 'signs of bad fish' earlier. the color was fine, it's not slimy, it didn't have an offensive odor either. just a bit of a strong taste.

and i have a therapy session tomorrow morning. i'm trying to be hopeful about it, but therapy and i have a history of not seeing results because i so strongly believe i don't mesh with it. i'll hopefully get the name of my diagnosis tomorrow, too.